- Inspired by the song “Come from the Heart” by Kathy Mattea
It was a new
job; it was a new life. After a
devastating loss that had been inflicted upon his family, he would start from
the beginning. Jonathan’s wife and two
small children had been killed in a car accident over three years ago. As Penelope and their two children were on a
short road-trip, they were stuck by a bus.
His life and
his love had been taken with his family.
He now immersed himself into a great depression that embodied his life. Morning upon morning, he awoke past noon to
an endless cup of coffee and a barrage of cigarettes. The process of awaking was tortuous and
plagued with fear. Showing up late to
work time after time, he lost his job.
Soon after he lost his job, he lost his house and was left living in a
halfway house wallowing in his own self-pity with no solace to be found. The depression left him cold and aloof of
senses.
In the halfway
house, he did not have to worry about work or food being put on the table. His welfare check supplied the money he would
need for coffee and cigarettes. His
complete lack of ambition was pronounced by the pain that had turned to
numbness.
Awakening
every afternoon, he would shave, brush his teeth, shower, and eat
breakfast. Although the routine marked
the bare minimum of existence, he painstakingly managed it not to succumb
completely to self-degeneration.
Each afternoon
he slowly arose to his breakfast, he could manage little more than an endless
stream of coffee and cigarettes. He
would oftentimes go back to sleep after a few hours to escape from the terrible
pain the accident had inflicted. In the shadow
of a life, he was now living completely bereft of hope. The normal chores of life represented to him
an insurmountable burden.
After three years, he decided it was time to leave his misery behind him. He had graduated from college and had been
working in the professional world for many years before the death of his family
and the onslaught of his inescapable depression. A spark of ambition remained in his consciousness;
now it was time to return to the world of the living.
One morning he
awoke before noon. He looked outside and
noticed the blue sky decorated with a collection of puffy white clouds. The grass was green and the music on the
radio created in him a glimmer of courage.
The next morning he awoke and enjoyed the miracle of the world around
him. A third morning he awoke in hopeful
ambition for what the new day would bring.
There was something within the depths of his soul that demanded that he find
something that would bring substance once again to his life.
Jonathan was
able to rediscover the miracle of life.
It became
habitual. He awoke every morning with a cup
coffee which he enjoyed with a few cigarettes.
It was the early spring; still two cool for the embattlement of the
summer heat, but warm enough to bask in the warm chill. The sun came over the horizon very
slowly. The clouds sporadically placed
about the sky echoed the love he felt in his heart. He looked upon the grass and the trees
admiring the distinct dark shades of green shared by both. The sky which lay above him was a pristine
shade of blue. The love in his heart
brought with it the zest for a miracle of a new day. It was his cheerful labor to discover what he
may, and to re-create for himself, his life of yesterday.
A year had past;
he now sat in an office at an accounting firm awaiting an interview where he
would offer himself as an intern. He
knew his three years of absence from work would not be looked upon favorably;
however, he would not to be overwhelmed by the prospect. Closing his eyes with a silent prayer, he
beckoned the beauty of life to embrace him as he faced this new venture with
confidence.
The interview
was short. Although he had been out of
work for more than three years, his résumé would allow him for a trial run as
an intern before he would become completely submerged into the professional
world.
“This
interview is basically a formality,” his employer began. “However, it was a decorum I chose not to
overlook. First of all, I can see by
your résumé that you graduated from San Diego State University with
honors. As an intern, you are more than
qualified. However, may I ask why you
have been out of work for the past three years?”
Jonathan did
not indicate the tragedy that had been inflicted upon his family in the recent
past to his prospective employer. It was
not the kind of information that he would put on his résumé. However, it was now the time and place to
share the news in an attempt to explain his hiatus.
Jonathan began “I hate to bring this up. I am not looking to share with you my misery
and I am not trying to appeal to your sympathy, but a horrible accident
occurred in my family. Over three years ago,
my wife and two children were killed in a car accident. After that, I faced a terrible depression
that took control of my life. I was slow
to recover, but I decided it was now time to continue living my life.”
Jonathan’s new
employer, Michael, chose not to comment any further about the absence from
work. He did feel sympathy for Jonathan,
but decided not to rehash the painful memories.
After a few
more questions, the interview ended. His
employer was very much impressed with Jonathan, his résumé, and his credentials. He stated to Jonathan, “Considering your
qualifications and the horrible ordeal you faced with the accident that
happened to your family, I would be glad to have you come work for us. I know you only applied for a volunteer position;
however, I can guarantee you now that you will be a full-time, fully-paid
employee after a short two week trial period.”
His new
employer reached across the table to shake Jonathan’s hand. “Can you start next Monday?”
Jonathan left
the building with the happy knowledge of a successful job interview. He returned back to the halfway house before
starting work the following Monday.
The cool
spring breeze invigorated his senses. He
drove home in his Toyota Cressida;
the only possession remaining after his plague of depression stole from him
everything else.
The smile on
his face reflected his sheer enjoyment and love for life as he faced the excitement
that tomorrow might bring.
“I will close
my eyes and let life bring to me what it does,” he said to himself in a
self-affirming manner.
That following
Monday he showed up at work. The warmth
in his heart was reflected upon everyone that he met. A blonde woman, one not typically considered
beautiful, flashed a smile in his direction.
Without fear or trepidation he smiled back. They introduced each other and he, in a
manner of shear contentment, had no further concern about where or where it may
not lead. After the brief encounter he
was introduced to the rest of office. He
would tackle a pile of balance sheets, income statements, and other documents of
company record. With the education he
had received in college and his years of work history, it was an endeavor
beneath his level of expertise. Yet, he
underwent the hard day of labor with the love of life that brought joy to
everything. He returned back to his
halfway house at the end of the day.
As the sun set
the moon crept over the horizon. The
disillusionment and disenchantment for life had led him, now, to marvel for all
that life could bring.
Life is a
thing of wonder. It is not a barrage of obstacles
that we must repeatedly face hindering our senses. Challenges are mere adventures. The excitement for each new day brings with
it hope. The miracles of life should not
be overlooked, rather they should be embraced.
A smile upon living brings with it happiness. Love encompasses itself into joy and brings passion
for all that life brings.
With this
knowledge, Jonathan smiled as the sun rose over the horizon the next morning. The pain was a thing of the past and love,
peace, and joy were all that that could now be found.
3 comments:
Glad to see all turn out well for Jonathan. Hope nothing else bad happens. It was nice to end on an optimistic note.
Lee
Wrote By Rote
An A to Z Co-host blog
Life is indeed a thing of wonder.
Very well done with this article Daron!!
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