- Inspired by … “Desperado” by The Eagles
The barroom lights were low. He came in here early after work, as he did
every night. The faces were familiar,
yet daunting.
“What will it be tonight?” the
barmaid asked him with a smile on her face.
She had seen him here very often lately.
“I finished up college around
here, a couple years ago,” he told her once.
“I’ve been trying to settle myself here since I graduated.”
She thought he was an especially
good looking guy, but very quiet.
“I’ll start out with a
Budweiser,” he politely asked the barmaid.
“It will be right up,” she told
him. She reached under the counter and
handed him a bottle of beer.
“Do you want me to put it on your
tab like I always do?” she asked him automatically.
He came here often and he didn’t
say much, but he was always a good tipper and she always appreciated that.
As she handed him his bottle of
beer, he put a dollar on the table as a tip.
The music was playing in the
background. It was a song he knew and
sometimes enjoyed, but as he typically would, after he ordered his first beer
he went to the jukebox and put five dollars in to play an assortment of his
favorite music.
He listened intently to the music
as he vaguely paid attention to the conversation the guy on the next stool
started.
The conversation was dull and
routine as it always was at the bar. He
didn’t come to meet any women, or to meet up with any friends, he came to the
bar simply so he wouldn’t have to spend the evening alone.
The music continued to play in
the background.
As he sat at the bar, he would often
contemplate his life. He was still very
young, shortly out of college, but it seemed that he had missed out on a lot in
his life. Not that he could think of
what to call it, but he had a vague impression that his life lacked passion. Even in college, he showed up to class and did
his homework, but he never put any actual effort into it. His social life seemed to be lacking and he
was unable to make close friends or have any sort of special relationship with
a woman. The monotony consumed him.
The music continued to play in
the background.
“What do you think? Will Seattle win The Superbowl again next
year?” one of the patrons asked the group of friends.
It was not football season yet,
but much of the barroom conversation existed of talking about football and
talking about women.
Justin, eager to discuss football
because it was one of the topics he actually knew something about,
rebutted. He said, “I think the team
that has the best shot of going all the way this year is Green Bay. If Aaron Rodgers stays healthy and the
running game continues from where it left off last year, I think they can beat
any team in the league.”
It was mundane conversation, yet
it seemed to break the nothingness in his life.
Every weekend, more often than
not, he would come to this same bar; he didn’t have any friends, but it was
better than time spent alone.
The barmaid listened intently to
the three men discussing football. Not a
football fan, Rebecca, enjoyed the conversation that served as mild amusement
while she worked.
“Could I have another beer?”
Justin asked the barmaid.
“You just ordered that first beer
five minutes ago,” she told him as she handed him another Budweiser. “If you keep it up, you aren’t going to find
your way home tonight.” The modest
flirtation lifted Justin’s mood for a brief moment.
He, once again, put another
dollar on the counter as a tip for the beer.
The music continued in the
background.
The conversation in the barroom
continued as the three patrons’ inebriation grew. They discussed football and baseball.
“I would like to see The Dodgers
do something this year, but I just don’t think it is going to come together.”
“I am interested in what The Cowboys
will do in the offseason,” another of the patrons said. “There offense was excellent last year and I
think it is only going to get better.
I’m interested to see if they make some key moves on their defensive
team.”
The barmaid cut into the
conversation, “Any of you want another beer?” she asked the three men.
All of them vigorously nodded and
she laid a beer down for each of them. Justin
put another dollar on the table and thanked the barmaid.
The music continued in the
background.
Justin thought of the chances of
something meaningful that could happen in his life. He thought of the void in which his life was
now engulfed.
One of Justin’s fellow patrons,
absorbed with his own typical drunkenness said to him, “What’s wrong buddy,
something wrong with that beer? Let me
buy you another one.”
Justin gave a painful grimace
which was all that was needed to disguise the solitude of his soul.
“One more beer for my friend,” he
asked the barmaid.
Justin looked into the mirror and
kept drinking his beer as his two compatriots continued their own conversation.
His morbidity was well hidden,
all of Justin’s compatriots thought Justin was having a good time. Oblivious, the people who Justin considered
to be strangers all considered Justin to be a friend.
The hours passed and the three
friends got drunker and drunker. The
music continued to play in the background and Justin listened more intently to
the music than his two friends. His
stone-cold drunkenness covered the blur in his mind. Shortly after 1:00 in the morning, it was
time for Justin to go home now.
“Could you call me a cab? He
politely slurred to the barmaid.
She grabbed the phone under the
counter and dialed up a cab.
“It will be here in about fifteen
minutes,” she said to him. “Are you
o.k.?” she asked slightly concerned with his level of drunkenness that was a
little bit more than typical today. “Do
you want another beer while you are waiting for your cab?”
In a drunken stupor he thanked
her. He paid his tab leaving an extra
five dollars for a tip.
As he walked out the door he the
patrons wished him a good night and said, “See you tomorrow night, buddy.”
The barmaid, not inflicted by the
same drunkenness, looked upon Justin as he left. She, although not
interested in the man, felt
some level of empathy in a quiet understanding of the real reasons he was
drinking. She brushed it off along with
a tear which almost welled up in her eye.
During the ride home in the cab,
Justin, too drunk to sit up, nearly passed out in the back of the cab.
He arrived home, paying the cab
driver his fair and a tip. He went into
his one room apartment and fell asleep immediately.
Another day would end as it did
before. Another morning would start in a
similar fashion.